About Me

Welcome to my blog I trust you may be blessed  as you look around and that God gets the glory for everything you may read or watch or listen to.

When I first started out with a blog, I was very unsure of how people were going to react and so I chose to remain anonymous.

Now that I am a wee bit more experienced in the ‘blogosphere’  and have learned a bit more about how it all works, and I have met so many awesome, loving brothers and sisters in the Lord along the way, that I have decided to use my own name now too. So for those of you who know me as Jessie or Jess, I can remain Jess, but for those of you who would like to call me Steph, you may also do that – it  does not really matter. To all of you that I have been so enriched by along the way, thank you and bless you – you have truly blessed me.

So who am I really?

I am first and foremost a child of the Most High God bought with a price – an incredible price. I am married with a 16yr old son.

I have been a Christian for 30 years this year, but have only truly known what it is to fall in love with our dear Lord and Saviour over the past 5 years. I finally became alive to Him.  I knew there had to be more in this relationship with God than I had had up until that time. The problem was I never knew anyone, whose relationship with the Lord was really any different to mine. No one I knew had that special missing ingredient that I knew just had to be there. What was it? Where could I get it? I said to the Lord one day that if I could not have a real living relationship with Him, then I did not want to carry on in this life as it held no true meaning.

In Psalm 81:10 it says “I am the Lord your God, who brought you out of the land of Egypt; open your mouth wide and I will fill it.”  And so I took the Lord at His word and opened my mouth wide, but had no idea what it was that would be required of me…

This yearning in me was the beginning of a few years of the most agonising searching out for God that I have ever done in my life.  I lost so much around me, I lost my business, I lost my church, I lost friends, and even almost lost my marriage and then finally was faced at one time with losing my life. Yet through all the tears and agony and at times immense misunderstanding of what the Lord was doing, I knew unequivocally that the hand of the Lord was there, guiding and moving me where He needed me to be.  Then one day as  I was reading the life story of Oswald Chambers, Abandoned to God, at one point in the story, the Lord made it very clear that it was this that was missing. I had been trying to do it. I had to let Him do it in me. The ‘I’ had to go, so that He could fill me. I could not hold onto any part of me that was not meant to be there. I had to have only one master and up to that point I had been that master. Now it was time for the only Master to take the reins of my life.

And so began the journey that I am still on, of learning about dying to self, picking up my cross and following Him. I sat in the Cafe where I was reading  my book, crying. I did not know what people thought, I did not care and neither did I care that I must have looked like a panda bear with my mascara all over my cheeks. I had finally found what I had searched so hard and so long for. This was all that mattered. I still have a copy of a letter that I wrote to my dad-in-law when the Lord showed me this.

To put it correctly, our dear Lord Jesus found me that day. Truly found me, and from that day on,  I want to know Him more than I did the day before. I never want to stop finding out about Him and getting to know Him. He is completely without end and so must my seeking of Him out, be.

How can I explain practically what God has really done in my life when so much is done in my heart away from view? In the secret places. To most they might appear insignificant. To me they have been and still are life-changing. The Lord has taken away many of the things that used to fill my head up, certain hobbies and certain things I used to read or watch on TV or at the movies, have all been removed and replaced with Him and things of Him. None of it has been really difficult – it has been a natural progression I guess. The Lord is just so incredibly kind and loving and patient, is He not?

In  Col 3:1-4 it says so clearly and it has happened in my own life that, ¹ If then you were raised with Christ, seek those things which are above, where Christ is, sitting at the right hand of God. ² Set your mind on things above, not on things on the earth. ³ For you died, and your life is hidden with Christ in God. ⁴ When Christ who is our life appears, then you also will appear with Him in glory.

To say that God is everything, is one thing, to live God is everything, is quite another. For any of us to come to a place where we let go of our agenda for our life and let God bring in His without any reservation, to be used as a vessel only for His glory should be the heart cry of our whole being.

My sin is forgiven through the Cross of Jesus Christ and that alone. My relationship with the LORD is only made whole by the Cross of Jesus Christ and His Atonement and nothing more. If you read the 5 Solas on the right hand side-bar, you will see what I am talking about.  I must become nothing that He might become All.

As in the words of Paul Washer – “He saved me. Isn’t that enough?”

Bless you.