Steph's hat for avatar Β Β  Welcome to my blog πŸ˜€ I trust you may be blessedΒ  as you lookΒ Β  around and that God gets the glory for everything you may read, watch or listen to.

I have met so many awesome, loving brothers and sisters in the Lord along the way so to all of you that I have been so enriched by along the way, thank you and bless you – you have truly blessed me.

So who am I really?

I am first and foremost a child of the Most High God bought with a price – an incredible price. I will be married for 26 years this May and we have an 20yr old son and both my husband and son, are born again.

I have been a Christian for 34 years this year, but have only truly known what it is to fall in love with our dear Lord and Saviour over the past 10 years. I finally became alive to Him.

I knew there had to be more in this relationship with God than I had had up until that time. The problem was that I never knew anyone whose relationship with the Lord was really any different to mine. No one I knew had that special missing ingredient that I knew just had to be there. What was it? Where could I get it? I ended up saying to the Lord one day that if I could not have a real living relationship with Him, then I did not want to carry on in this life, as it held no true meaning.

In Psalm 81:10 it says “I am the Lord your God, who brought you out of the land of Egypt; open your mouth wide and I will fill it.”Β  And so I took the Lord at His word and opened my mouth wide, but had no idea what it was, that would be required of me…

This yearning in me was the beginning of a few years of the most agonising searching out for God that I have ever done in my life. At times I felt I was being split right in two.Β  I lost so much around me, I lost my business, I lost my church, I lost friends, and even almost lost my marriage and then finally was faced at one time with losing my life. Yet through all the tears and agony and at times immense misunderstanding and confusion of what the Lord was doing, I knew unequivocally that the presence of the Lord was there, His hand guiding and moving me where He needed me to be. He was my Sovereign Lord.

Then one day I was reading the life story of Oswald Chambers, Abandoned to God, and at one point in the story, the Lord made it very clear that it was this that was missing. I had been trying to do it. I had to let Him do it in me. The ‘I’ had to go, so that He could fill me. I could not hold onto any part of me that was not meant to be there. I had to have only one master and up to that point I had been that master. Now it was time for the only Master to take the reins of my life.

And so began the journey that I am still on, of learning about dying to self, picking up my cross and following Him daily in my regular ordinary everyday life and it is a journey that I now know, will be lifelong and one that will carry both sorrow and joy.

How can I explain practically what God has really done in my life when so much is done in my heart away from view, in the secret places? To most they might appear insignificant. To me they have been and still are, life-changing. The Lord has taken away many of the things that used to fill my head up, certain associations and friends, hobbies and some things I used to read or watch on TV or at the movies, have all been removed and replaced with Him and things of Him. None of it has been really difficult, just occasionally when my will conflicts with His and I have ‘cloth ears’.Β  The Lord is just so incredibly kind and loving and patient, is He not? πŸ˜€

InΒ  Col 3:1-4 it says so clearly and it has happened in my own life that, 1 If then you were raised with Christ, seek those things which are above, where Christ is, sitting at the right hand of God. 2 Set your mind on things above, not on things on the earth. 3 For you died, and your life is hidden with Christ in God. 4 When Christ who is our life appears, then you also will appear with Him in glory.

To say that God is everything, is one thing, to live God is everything, is quite another. For any of us to come to a place where we let go of our agenda for our life and let God bring in His without any reservation, to be used as a vessel only for His glory should be the heart cry of our whole being. That too, is a lifelong endeavour.

My sin is forgiven through the Cross of Jesus Christ and that alone. My relationship with the LORD is only made whole by the Cross of Jesus Christ and His Atonement and nothing more. No added extras. The cry of every Christian ought to be:Β  “I must become nothing that He might become All.”

Finally, in the words of Paul Washer – “He saved me. Isn’t that enough?”

Bless you.

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  1. Rich Gorecki says:

    You are truly blessed Steph, with a wonderful talent to express yourself both verbally and through your wonderful photographic vision. I’m honored to know you, and pray that every day you find even more blessings on your doorstep as well as in your heart!

    God bless!!!

  2. Steph says:

    I am both overwhelmed and humbled by your kind response, Rich. Thank you for your visit and I hope it won’t be your last πŸ˜€
    Blessings to you too!

  3. Rich Gorecki says:

    Definitely won’t be my last visit Steph! Your testimony here has been like a brilliant splash of warm sunlight and I appreciate the warmth and comfort your words provide in these pages. If you ever feel the need for encouragement know that you’ve got many friends out here who, working thru our Lord, are always here for you!! πŸ™‚

  4. Steph says:

    Thank you and bless you Rich! πŸ˜€

  5. Tanja L. says:

    Dear Steph,
    It amazes me that God has seemed to call so many of us in the same timing and message. Many were just like you, going through motions as Christians and then with me in 2005 He spoke, clearly. All I can think is that the time must be short and we are being gathered. Not in any physical denomination like we once thought but true unity in the Spirit, the true church. Many have been asked to leave our fellowships as they turn to other gods and cannot bear the truth, but God has also showed me where the true believers are in amazing ways. Stay strong in the Lord. I cannot imagine how difficult it must be in South Africa. My unsaved father lives there and I pray that he will find Christ. Thank you for your testimony dear sister.

  6. Steph says:

    Hi Tanja L.
    Bless you and thank you for both your visit and your comment. It has blessed me so πŸ˜€

    This is the first time I have ever heard of a church asking people to leave – normally others are the one being asked to leave because they will not kow-tow to the ‘new revelation’ and movement or whatever, that is happening in a church. Praise God for Him having you in such an assembly and may He strengthen and embolden the leadership in His ways and His life in each brother and sister there!

    I will pray for your father’s salvation. Praise our Lord that He is mightier than all of this and knows the outcome of it all. That is a joy indeed!

    Bless you too Tanja and you are welcome to drop by any time and say hi πŸ˜€

  7. Charles T. says:

    Hello Steph.
    I am very new at this blog bit, and I hope that I will be able to build a site like yours, but if God wills then it will happen. You mention that you are not into “heavy things” but I see quite a few “Heavy things listed on your site! I hope to be able to read it all some time and then I will know you better. If you have visited my site you will see that I am a bit old too! Had a few close encounters in the last few years, prostate cancer among then but that is all in the past now and so we look into the future be it in this life or into the Kingdom, that Jesus bought us for. Thank you for you introduction, I understand what you are saying but do not have the ability with words that you do. May God’s blessings be with you always, Charles T.

  8. Steph says:

    Hi Charles:-D
    Thank you for your visit here – you are most welcome.

    I started with a Blogger (Blogspot) blog which was really easy to work with, almost 2 years ago and decided to move to WP to allow me to have individual pages for different topics (my tabs at the top of my blog) I have two very dear brothers in England whom the Lord has joined me together with on the Faith Defenders’ site (logo top left of my page) who have helped me more than words can ever say. I don’t know if I would have had the courage to go it alone on WP as it is far more technical than my basic knowledge (and it really is baaaasic – just ask them! :-D)

    Being a bit old is good – one thing is for definite – that we are all going to become a bit old then a bit older then…. you get the picture πŸ˜€ unless the Lord decides to take us home when we are just a bit old.. :-D. Age is of no relevance in the Lord. It is where we are in our relationship with Him that counts far more. My closest sister in the Lord is almost 70 and there is no age difference spiritually between us. We are sisters. She just can’t jog as fast as I can πŸ˜€

    I am sure you are learning lots about blogging already πŸ˜€ and you will find that most folks are kind, but you get the odd one who is not. I was quite shattered when I go my first angry-letter and was at quite a loss initially as to how to respond. I eventually did reply – graciously – and amazingly got an apology on line from him. But this is not often the norm and sadly sometimes its the Christians who are the most ungracious!

    One thing I have yet to master with the Lord is the way that I sometimes write things is not always the tone in my heart /voice – sometimes the writing comes out sharp when it is entirely the opposite. I am not an English Major or anything fancy just a daughter of the Lord sharing His life in her with everyday, simple, English words. You don’t have to be clever to do that. Just willing to be a vessel as He leads you.

    I pray the Lord will guide you and lead you as you go and that you will learn to wait on Him for the writing you do. Be very encouraged!

    Bless you too Charles,

  9. Tanja LeMire says:

    Dear Steph,

    I must have mis-phrased. I meant to say that we have been asked to leave or have left at the Lord’s leading not willing kow-tow. This sounds like what you are experiencing also. Currently I am not attending a physical church, but am blessed to be a child of God and am trusting in his leading for each day wherever that may be. Thank you for praying for my Dad, I will also pray for your parents. Thank you for your kind response dear sister, have a wonderful day. πŸ™‚ Tanja

  10. Steph says:

    Hi Tanja
    Hey, no problem – it was certainly a wonderful unique thought while it lasted πŸ˜€ I can still pray for them though just in a different way πŸ˜€

    Too often folks are asked to leave a church because they can no longer tolerate the heresy that is being spouted from the pulpit and make it very clear, but God is so faithful and He will remove His children one way or another when the time is right. The sad thing is, those who are following the heresy with their eyes and hearts closed, see us who follow the Bible as the enemy who cause division by speaking out against what they are doing, instead them of going to the Lord and His word to check it out and understanding that it takes love to speak out the warning in the way that is needed and that it is not done as a judgement.

    Bless you and thanks for coming back to set me right πŸ˜€

  11. Pat says:

    Hi Steph,
    Have enjoyed reading on your site.You have a gentle and sweet spirit.
    I believe I come off harsh with the tone of my speech also.The many years
    have dampened it some. I have long past overcome religion. and the truth is
    or seems harsh, but it is a two-edged sword, and it cuts, but it is as you said
    takes Fathers love to speak it.
    I was reading some thing one day that said Truth is a hard master and
    costly to serve, but it simplifies all problems.
    Having a love of truth is a wonderful gift from the Lord. You have
    that and I know God will lead you into more of Him. Blessings to you.


  12. Steph says:

    Hi Pat πŸ˜€
    Welcome and thank you for your lovely uplifting comment – I am both blessed and humbled by it!

    Yes the Truth is a hard master indeed and it costs you everything eventually. You can tell the truth in His love and it will ‘hit home’, for want of a better expression, as it is meant to – that is the Lord’s business. We just need His leading and be prepared to obey Him regardless of the cost to ourselves. I guess the Truth does cost you everything, it has to as we can keep nothing of ourselves, for ourselves. The joy is that the Lord does equip us to face and deal with all we need to in our life, if we will but accept that we are to become nothing that He can become all. It really does as you have said so truthfully, simplify our life.

    May the Lord bless you too dear sister

  13. Pat says:

    Thank you Steph,
    To be as Jesus, full of GRACE AND TRUTH, is worth the price.
    I put you on my favorite link so I can come straight here,and read
    more often. Your web page is so real and refreshing, and the photo’s
    are beautiful. The Lord continue to reveal Himself and His Truth to you.
    Love in Christ,

  14. anewcreation says:

    Hi Steph,

    You have, I believe, visited my blog in the past. I have only just read this page in your blog and I am really inspired by the heart behind the words.

    May the Lord continue to bless you and shine His face upon you.

  15. Steph says:

    Hi anewcreation πŸ˜€
    Yes I have visited your blog in the past and popped over there now and with great excitement, have just left you a comment too πŸ˜€

    Thank you for your words here. I am greatly blessed and encouraged by them.

    May I add a link to your blog – I feel so many sisters (me included) and brothers would be blessed by a visit to it.

    Bless you
    Steph πŸ˜€

  16. sherry says:

    Hi Steph.

    I just wanted to send a hello your way. You, Tim (flee the wrath), Steve (Prodigal Knot), Gene (what is he up to?), and John have all been on my mind…I have been reminiscing – being reminded of the blessing you all have been in my life – thankful for all of you…even though we do not stay in touch – my thoughts of all of you are many and blessed. I hope all is well!


  17. Steph says:

    Hi Sherry – lovely to hear from you!!!
    I will send you a wee email to say hi πŸ™‚ I have been off-line since you sent me your comment as I was having a new computer built for me by my son so it took longer than expected. Trust you are all well too?
    Bless you

  18. Harry says:

    Hi Steph,
    Am blessed bu ur website, I am here in the far east , wher English churches are hardly there and ur blog has given me suffcient material – especially Paul Washer and Oswald Chambers, some of my favourites. thanks and God bless

  19. Steph says:

    Hi Harry
    Thank you for your visit and comment and most of all, all glory to the Lord for how He has led you here for His purposes. I am blessed in return that you have been blessed by this blog πŸ˜€

  20. Geir says:

    I promised to step by one day, Steph, and I’m glad I did. This is a lovely place, and you write so well. After reading this I think the word “blessing” will be my word of focus for the coming months.

  21. Steph says:

    Hello there Geir!! How lovely to have you drop by and say hello.

    Thank you for your incredibly kind words and I am blessed in return that the Lord has given you a blessing from your visit. You are most welcome to pop by any time and join in any of the articles that might be on the go… πŸ˜€

  22. Arthur says:

    Been blessed by your site Steph.You are a blessing to this generation:A light in the darkness that has engulfed the world.And you are right:Christ’s saints are His Church on earth not the buildings of Men and it is therefore a blessing that you lost your church( and other things).If you hadn’t lost your church you wouldn’t have been a member of Christ’s Church and you wouldn’t have had the current hunger and zeal that you have for the Lord We as Christians lose who we are in order to become what God created us to be(Luke 17:33,John 12:24-25)
    Christians are saved because Jesus lives and works in them and not because they are approved by men or belong to ‘churches’of men

    For do I now persuade men, or God? or do I seek to please men? for if I yet pleased men, I should not be the servant of Christ.Gal 1:10
    And he said unto them, Ye are they which justify yourselves before men; but God knoweth your hearts: for that which is highly esteemed among men is abomination in the sight of God.Luke 16:15

    Blessed are ye, when men shall revile you, and persecute you, and shall say all manner of evil against you falsely, for my sake. Matt 5:11

    God bless,strengthen and keep you and yours.

  23. Arthur says:

    Just wanted to update the link in the website field.It appears the one i posted previously wasn’t correct.

  24. Steph says:

    Thank you for your visit and comment Bro πŸ˜€ My life is His to do with it as He pleases, my part is to be willing, obedient and surrendered to Him.
    May the Lord take any and all glory for this site and what it may mean for anyone, He brings across it.
    May He bless you and yours too.

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